ok, im writing again without you pushing me this time. =P

hmm.. what to say, though?
for one, i miss going to work. i love being around my son and taking care of him but i do miss the feeling of being needed somewhere else. i miss my old routine of having to wake up at a specific time to be somewhere where you feel like you're just hanging out with friends. i miss trying to meet deadlines, or being able to help someone new, or just simply finish the work people expect you to finish at the end of the day. i miss my free coffee! :) or that table that would usually be decorated with photos of friends.. of course now, mine would probably be something different. weird how that world seems to be distant to me now. it'll come back to me, im sure. soon enough, i hope.
i guess work is a safe zone for me, where you are being responsible and productive but not exactly with as much weight as what is waiting for me at home.

anyway, one step at a time, i guess. things will fall in to place eventually, she said. wise words, jen. im still holding on to it every single day.